Sunday Reflection

The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. – Psalm 34:18

When your heart breaks, there’s a certain pain that you feel inside. A pain that grows stronger by the minute every time you think of what has hurt you. You feel as if your heart is hurting, and your soul is crying and nothing can take you away from the pain. For me, I don’t like to cry in front of people; I don’t even like crying alone because I feel like I let someone bring me to a low point. But that doesn’t stop the tears from falling. The more you suppress your feelings the harder it is to hold in. Then soon tears start to fall, and you can’t even hold them back. They fall because they need to be let out. It’s sad when your tears fall down your face and you cry in silence because you still don’t want to give your strength away. You want to remain strong and not even open your mouth but your tears give it all away. The anger and sadness that you’ve held inside is now filling up your eyes. You have no other choice but to let it out.

With all the heartbreak I’ve endured, as soon as I wipe my tears away I pray and tell God “ Please take this pain away.” From there I let God handle it. I don’t want to keep those feelings harbored inside causing me to become bitter; I'd rather let it go than become someone I’m not. I’ve learned that crying isn’t weak, it is you being vulnerable, and vulnerability is strength. It’s the hardest thing to do but it relieves you of pain. And just because you cry once doesn’t mean the pain is gone, you may have to cry a few times just to get it all out. But I’m here to say its okay to do that, whether you’re alone or in front of people just let it out. Don’t be afraid to cry.