Checking In

For about a month and some change, I’ve been feeling like my mental health has been going down hill. I just feel out of it some days where I don’t want to do anything. I constantly think about deleting my social media and just going ghost half the time. There are times when I don’t even feel like writing.

My outlet is writing poetry and blog posts and when I can’t even get myself to do that I know something inside isn’t all the way right. That’s when I check in with myself and try to find the root of what’s causing me to back track on my progress. I even think to myself I’ve come so far with how I use to be but sometimes I feel like I’m back at square one. Then I think maybe that’s needed, maybe I need to be pulled back a little bit to continue to work on my mental health and my personal growth. I mean it really is an everyday process. From traumas to insecurities, it’s a constant battle to stay up.

You have to push yourself to be stronger than your demons. And that shit is hard.

We’ve all been there where we push through just to be happy, cause that’s all we truly want is to be happy and have peace of mind. But it takes work to get there. I’m in the process of working to get back where I was mentally and continuing the process of getting to a place where I feel good about me. If you have been feeling the same as me or possibly worse then talk to someone or take sometime to find the root. Even if you feel like you need to be alone for a little while that’s okay. Just don’t give up on yourself.