Career & Relationship Balance

Sometimes I think about my future. I think about who my husband will be, where my career will take me and if I’ll still be living in New York. I think about these things because they scare me but also excite me. They scare me because I don’t want to fail. Failing is my biggest fear. It is something that holds me back from accomplishing goals I have for myself. I don’t want to fail career wise or relationship wise.

I have put my feelings on hold for sometime now and have been focusing on my career and building my future. I’ve always been a hustler and gone after what I want. It helps keep me motivated and moving. I’m trying to shape my future now by putting my best foot forward. I’ve learned that if I don’t then I have already failed without even trying. Also trying to find the balance with having a career and a healthy relationship is tough. I’ve been a bit hesitant with investing my time with someone. I’ve wasted my time in the past and don’t want to do that again. Finding your “match”, someone with the same morals and values as you isn’t easy. And I know that it is hard to invest time and energy into someone and it goes nowhere, especially when you see so much more for yourself than to settle with whomever. I know it takes some time for people like myself to open up because we’ve been hurt many times and the love that we gave was never reciprocated. But that doesn’t mean we won’t find it. Careers and relationships are works in progress. Things may not be wrapped in a perfect package but it will be the perfect package for you. I want an amazing career and someone to share my life with that will build me up and be that man in my life and vice versa. We all want both but we have to be willing to work hard for our careers and be willing to work hard in our relationships as well.